She died minutes after midnight on the first day of the month.

I miss her no less then I did that night.....and I'd still trade places with her.    She always talked about wanting to see the boys grow into young men.   She wanted grandkids, and to buy a cabin on a lake in Minnesota, and fish, and listen to the loons at night.

I've dated, but my heart isn't in it.   I'm lonely at times, but don't want to be with others either.  

Honey, I miss you and think about you often.    I'm not crippled with grief; I work, keep house, shop, and enjoy life.....but I miss you.    And will forever.    I hope I never stop.